Feeling You

There is a hint of your cologne lingering upon each whisper of the wind. The leaves swirl at my feet and the memories dance in my mind. The memories of the love we shared carry me through the moments without you. My passion is replaced with lonely but my love remains unchanged.

I watch silently as the sun settles into the horizon in a picture perfect canvas of color until the darkness of the night sky overcomes me. The trees in the distance fade into the background, mere shadows beneath the light of the rising moon. I pause for a moment to soak in all of the beauty that surrounds me and breathe a sigh of gratitude to Spirit.

I can hear your voice whispering softly to me. It is a familiar sound though when I look around me I can not see you. The memories are so vivid I find it hard to distinguish memory from reality.

Searching My Memories

While the gentle fall rain is falling outside my window. I sit alone listening to the sounds of nature and of man. I can hear in the distance the sound of the inbound train as it makes its way closer to the edge of town.

In my mind I can recall a day much like this one that we decided to take a drive. We had to cash a check, the perfect excuse to get away.

As we drove with the radio playing those slow country ballads your voice seemed to filll my soul with gladness. I can't recall many happy moments before I met you. Oh yes, there were a few but in comparison, they rate very low on the scale of true happiness.

Each breath that I breathed with you was another moment of fulfillment. Nothing else really mattered when you were near. My soul was complete as you were my balance and my partner in things that no other could come close to. Everything about you made me happy being me.

You reminded me that everything is important in its own unique way and that life is entirely too short to not live each moment to the fullest.

In your arms I found my happiest moments, in your kiss I found passion that lived deep in my soul, and through your faith in me, I found strength to do things I never thought that I could do.

Now, as I sit here enjoying the sound of the rain, I am taken back through time to those magickal moments that we shared and even through the rain the fires of passion burned. To this day, not a moment passes, that something doesn't remind me of you, and me, and you and me together.

You have always been and will always be the one that makes me smile. In searching my memories I find peace, love, passion, serenity, and contentment. In reliving those memories I find my heart still holding true to you and the love that could not have been any stronger. In sharing those memories...I keep you alive.

With all my love, all your love, and all that we have shared...I know that one day we will meet again and until then...I live in memory of us, just the way we were, with no regrets and no apologies.