Searching My Memories

While the gentle fall rain is falling outside my window. I sit alone listening to the sounds of nature and of man. I can hear in the distance the sound of the inbound train as it makes its way closer to the edge of town.

In my mind I can recall a day much like this one that we decided to take a drive. We had to cash a check, the perfect excuse to get away.

As we drove with the radio playing those slow country ballads your voice seemed to filll my soul with gladness. I can't recall many happy moments before I met you. Oh yes, there were a few but in comparison, they rate very low on the scale of true happiness.

Each breath that I breathed with you was another moment of fulfillment. Nothing else really mattered when you were near. My soul was complete as you were my balance and my partner in things that no other could come close to. Everything about you made me happy being me.

You reminded me that everything is important in its own unique way and that life is entirely too short to not live each moment to the fullest.

In your arms I found my happiest moments, in your kiss I found passion that lived deep in my soul, and through your faith in me, I found strength to do things I never thought that I could do.

Now, as I sit here enjoying the sound of the rain, I am taken back through time to those magickal moments that we shared and even through the rain the fires of passion burned. To this day, not a moment passes, that something doesn't remind me of you, and me, and you and me together.

You have always been and will always be the one that makes me smile. In searching my memories I find peace, love, passion, serenity, and contentment. In reliving those memories I find my heart still holding true to you and the love that could not have been any stronger. In sharing those memories...I keep you alive.

With all my love, all your love, and all that we have shared...I know that one day we will meet again and until then...I live in memory of us, just the way we were, with no regrets and no apologies.

Peaceful as the River Flows

On the surface it does not show
Peaceful as the river flows
But silent is the rage below
As on and on our love does go

From bank to bank and in between
Flowing gently rolling free
Then suddenly on bended knee
My love is asking too much of me

I can not please him or give in
I do not know how I must begin
To regain what might have been
Still somehow I'll try again

Peaceful as the river flows
On the surface it does not show
But silent is the rage below
So now it's time to let him go